Sam is the stillborn brother of my other son, Kobe. I wrote this song shortly after the birth/death. The Hebrew is part of a prayer that Robin recited as she held Sam in the hospital. It translates as: May God smile on you, and grant you peace.
Lyrics
Sam’s Song
Though we’ve already said goodbye
Still need to give it one more try
You see I’m not quite sure just where to go
And I’m wondering now will I ever know
Of course I realize that you
Were really only passing through
But it’s becoming very clear to me
That you were meant to be part of the family
Sometimes you leave, sometimes you stay
Sometimes you find yourself pulled away
Just want to say given who I am
Yisa adonai panav ei-lecha
V’yasem l’cha shalom
And thanks for the kisses, Sam
Certain feelings still persist
Like wondering what I might have missed
And never knowing what’s around the bend
Of the road not taken
I still am haunted by the fear
That I will lose what you left here
I realize now why I must be strong
And not get lost, thinking I did something wrong
Sometimes you win, sometimes you lose
Sometimes you find yourself all confused
You left us here to do the best we can
Yisa adonai panav ei-lecha
V’yasem l’cha shalom
And thanks for the kisses, Sam
Thanks for the dreams, though it seems
It was never meant to be
Thanks for the ride, though inside
I can’t trust the memory
Thanks for this song, and the chance to sing
But thank you most of all, Sam, for listening
But no matter how I try
Can’t see what’s good about goodbye
And up to now as far as I can tell
There’s nothing fair about farewell
This is just a prayer I pray
To help ease me on my way
And if this journey takes me anywhere
I like to think you’ll be waiting there.
Sometimes you fall, sometimes you fly
Sometimes you don’t know whether to laugh or cry
Sometimes you see just why you need
To hold your brother’s hand
Yisa adonai panav ei-lecha
V’yasem l’cha shalom
And thanks for the kisses, Sam