I Never Wanted to Go

Written after I had broken up with Susie Sherman, I can still picture the bench I sat on as I wrote this. From the beginning it was meant to be in the style of The Righteous Brothers, but it was another dozen years until I worked out the bridge with Willow II. The original chorus was: “Susan I’m losing my mind.” Well, I was just 20.

Really a blast to sing back then; I doubt if I could sing it today.

I Never Wanted to Go

Autumn winds were blowing
Leaves were falling, dancing ‘neath the trees
Summer smiled sweetly
As I’d rest my head down upon your knees
Pastures of pleasure
I still see us lying there in my mind
It’s then I grab my life and think
About staying behind

Sometimes I think about the day
That I walked out your door
Just who walked out on who now
You know I still ain’t sure
And look what it’s doing to me

Girl, I’m losing my mind
I should have known all the time
That I’d be sorry I left you
I never wanted to
I thought you would know
From the tears in my eyes
Ah, no
I never wanted to go

Autumn was dying, I was crying
You said oh, no, don’t be sad
You said I’d fixed up all the
Mixed up notions that you’d ever had
If you had asked me why
Why was I leaving you that way
I would have had no answer for you
But I would have stayed

You said you understood and smiled
As I walked out your door
I still see that one last smile
As I still wonder where I’m gonna go
I can’t take it now more

Girl, I’m losing my mind
I should have known all the time
That I’d be sorry I left you
I never wanted to
I thought you would know
From the tears in my eyes
Ah, no
I never wanted to go

Girl, what do I have to say
Ain’t it clear from each tear I leave here
That I wanted to stay
And girl, I thought you would know
That I never wanted to go

Girl, I’m losing my mind
I should have known all the time
That I’d be sorry I left you
I never wanted to
I thought you would know
From the tears in my eyes
Ah, no
I never wanted to go.